I have often wondered—more than I would like to accept - do we find love, or does love find us? Most people’s perception of love derives from the love they see around them - in their families, among their friends, in movies, and in songs. The first is the one they see between their parents. Sadly, I never saw that side of love. The abandonment issues that have been understood and dealt with have had a graver impact. I have spent a significant amount of time searching for love, craving it, and trying to fill the void left by my childhood hollowness.

Strangely though, I never had a scarcity of it when it came to potential partners. I had boyfriends who loved me; I had found companionship, and I had experienced trauma. I never had trouble finding love; I had trouble keeping it. I don’t know what it was - sometimes it was our own troubles, at other times major flaws, and one time a divine intervention.